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 I DILUTE MY SENSES WITH A MORBID ONSLAUGHT OF ORGANIC MALWARE.

Im 22222fucking sick of it—-why can’t it ever be the same!

But actually it just is all the same to me, always has been.

Without delusional fantasy of purpose I am reminded of who I really am, nothing/nobody.

If I have a soul it is long dead, it has never seen the light of day and is only a myth. EVEN TO ME HAHA. 

I think that now that I have no working soul it needs to be replaced at once, before the rot takes over the rest of my physical form (even tho that is rotting as well and will soon be dust, u r wat u eat haha)

I think of this as like installing a new operating system. Mine is outdated and it needs to be deleted, it cannot keep up with the system requirement of these new programs! 

Reduced entirely to a numbing and purposeless existence. I don’t think I deserve to ǝᴉp but I wouldn’t mind. Broken software rotting inside a shell of rusted and collapsing hardware is pointless anyway, you’d find it in the junkyard. Oh wait! That’s where i am now <3

>wake up

I enjoy cutting and burning myself. I don’t cry when I do it the way i used to. In a strange way I am glad that I have started doing it again, it’s a relief. I have tried to justify it but I cannot. #derp:p

>𝓗𝓮𝓵𝓵𝓸 𝓶𝔂 𝓷𝓪𝓶𝓮 𝓲𝓼 𝓬𝓱𝓮𝓵𝓼𝓮𝓪 𝓤𝓦𝓤 𝓪𝓷𝓭𝓭𝓭𝓭 𝓘 𝓮𝓷𝓳𝓸𝔂 𝓵𝓸𝓽𝓼 𝓸𝓯 𝓬𝓸𝓸𝓵 𝓳𝓪𝓹𝓪𝓷𝓮𝓼𝓮 𝓿𝓲𝓭𝓮𝓸 𝓰𝓪𝓶𝓮𝓼 𝓵𝓲𝓴𝓮 𝓼𝓸𝓾𝓷𝓭 𝓿𝓸𝓵𝓽𝓮𝔁 𝓪𝓷𝓭 𝓶𝓮𝓰𝓪 𝓶𝓪𝓷 ^_^ 𝓽𝓱𝓮𝔂 𝓻 𝓯𝓾𝓷 2 𝓶𝓮 𝓵𝓸𝓽𝓼! 𝓱𝓪𝓱𝓪.

>私は自分自身に決して満足することはありません、ほんの1年前の「私」はおそらく私が愚かな音楽とたわごとでどこまで到達したかを見て喜びと喜びで満たされるでしょうが、その後に続く痛みはわかりません！おかしくないですか？愚かな「女の子」。

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